My brain is dumb,
I’m dumbing down,
I’m dumbing down,
I’m losing braincells,
My brain is dumb,
I’m dumbing down,
Turn a wide-open day,
Into hours of anxiety and OCD;
All of that potential for feeling good,
To work towards goals,
“Tomorrow’s a new day”,
Until it isn’t,
And there’s no way to reason out of it,
Since it’s all for nothing,
It’s all just the lasting symptoms of trauma;
There comes a point where resting is stressful,
Because the basic things I need to do;
There was no logic behind all it to start with,
And the only answer is to not count the losses, but simply stop doing it;
Living like this, days fly by,
Weeks fly by, months fly by,
There’s always a new day,
Until it’s gone the same way;
Then the feeling that my brain’s becoming dumb,
I’m dumbing down,
Losing braincells,
My brain is dumb,
I’m dumbing down,
Just not quite as bad,
As browsing reddit would be.
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I have days like that too where I just feel myself getting DUMBER. I get frustrated with myself when I make plans to do this or that, and then I spend the day fretting and doing nothing at all. There’re times when I feel like I have no words left, as though they’ve fled my brain altogether. Just gotta stay off that website with the little orange monkey………..
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Haha, yes exactly. Thanks Hetty π
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I cannot imagine what is like. It teaches me not to take simple things for granted because one man’s minuscule is another man’s treasure. It’s humbling to read this and the comments.
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What a wonderful poem you’ve penned in such few words Robin. So much conveyed through minimal words, I’m always amazed by such pieces.
A lot of memorable lines too,
“All of that potential for feeling good,
To work towards goals,
βTomorrowβs a new dayβ,
Until it isnβt,”
“There comes a point where resting is stressful,”
And the end caught me off guard haha.
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π thanks again Megha! I’m always caught off guard by such positive comments! Haha. I had mixed feelings about the ‘quality’ of it because it was just one of those mental health pain ones off the top of my head, like I used to do. But just speaking what I feel seems to work sometimes, so that is satisfying!
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