Hamster Enclosure Painting

I've finally finished preparing my hamster enclosure (painting and varnishing it with pet-safe paints). It's really dragged out painfully over many days (12) due to a combination of having to manage OCD alongsideβ€” practising ERP to avoid feeding itβ€” and some trial and error and learning about painting wooden furniture. There were also some modifications … Continue reading Hamster Enclosure Painting

I’m Adopting An Older Hamster

I got an instagram account just so I could follow Happy Hamsters UK. I have to grit my teeth whilst using it though. This brief delve into social media has revealed a far-progressed and sophisticated digital dystopia. Anyway here are some pictures of a hamster named Etta whom I've reserved! I noticed she kept being … Continue reading I’m Adopting An Older Hamster

Hamster Preparations

I've made so much progress in sorting through my possessions and either selling them on eBay, giving them away through Freecycle or throwing them away if they weren't useable. All of this clutter has a tangible affect on my thinking, which I've always known but the pull of OCD was stronger. Overcoming OCD to be … Continue reading Hamster Preparations

We Have No Healthcare

I just don't understand how we're not protesting on a large scale here at the moment. Even for the usually-apathetic UK population this is surprising. I think a lot of people buy into the talk of protest having been made illegal last year, and just going along with that as something that's happened now, another … Continue reading We Have No Healthcare

‘Hidden’ Genocides

It shouldn't take direct experienceTo understand the impactAnd realityOf underfunded services It shouldn't take direct experienceTo understand the horrorOf people waiting 12 hours in the dark and coldFor an ambulance It shouldn't take direct experienceTo understand the consequencesOf a dystopian welfare systemAnd under-supporting the disabled; Unfortunately it does, on the large scale;It's one of the … Continue reading ‘Hidden’ Genocides

Emotional Support Amster

I can't hold back any longer, I'm committed to getting an emotional support hamster! I've been more functional in the last week and finally after 6 months of living here I've been able to start organising and tidying things properly, selling some things I don't need on ebay and throwing away or donating other things. … Continue reading Emotional Support Amster

Voluntary Medical Procedures

After recently reading a blog post about giving blood, I decided to face my blood-related queasiness and give it a try. "Don't think about it, just do it!"β€” that was all I needed to hear lol. It's a personal affront to be seen to be 'dithering' or 'faffing'. Usually blood tests make me feel weird … Continue reading Voluntary Medical Procedures

Breakdown Of The UK

It feels likeThe pandemic all over againThe start of proper winterAnd the country's shutting down It's the final end gameWhere sheer desperation drives the population to challengeThe immovable narcissistic mindset of the government; It's the same storyβ€”They go under the radar for so longScheming and manipulatingBut not enough people see it Until finally the majority … Continue reading Breakdown Of The UK

Whomsoever Whensoever

OCD ritualsWith implied stateAre the worstThat's what's gripped me the last year and a half It stopped being funThere was no relief in writing about anythingBecause the state would remain 'imperfect'Regardless of what I did in-between And now I feel self-conscious againPeople reading what I writeCertain people whom I'd rather they not readAnd I don't … Continue reading Whomsoever Whensoever