Tag: Mental Health

Hamster Enclosure Complete!

I've finally put it all together! And made a custom platform/ladder combination with wood from the unused shelves which came with the enclosure. It's all fitted together really satisfyingly. The metal thing dangling from the lid is for putting fresh vegetable chunks on, it's a fun way for them to get it :). I'm just … Continue reading Hamster Enclosure Complete! →

Hamster Enclosure Painting

I've finally finished preparing my hamster enclosure (painting and varnishing it with pet-safe paints). It's really dragged out painfully over many days (12) due to a combination of having to manage OCD alongsideβ€” practising ERP to avoid feeding itβ€” and some trial and error and learning about painting wooden furniture. There were also some modifications … Continue reading Hamster Enclosure Painting →

Hamster Preparations

I've made so much progress in sorting through my possessions and either selling them on eBay, giving them away through Freecycle or throwing them away if they weren't useable. All of this clutter has a tangible affect on my thinking, which I've always known but the pull of OCD was stronger. Overcoming OCD to be … Continue reading Hamster Preparations →

‘Hidden’ Genocides

It shouldn't take direct experienceTo understand the impactAnd realityOf underfunded services It shouldn't take direct experienceTo understand the horrorOf people waiting 12 hours in the dark and coldFor an ambulance It shouldn't take direct experienceTo understand the consequencesOf a dystopian welfare systemAnd under-supporting the disabled; Unfortunately it does, on the large scale;It's one of the … Continue reading ‘Hidden’ Genocides →

Voluntary Medical Procedures

After recently reading a blog post about giving blood, I decided to face my blood-related queasiness and give it a try. "Don't think about it, just do it!"β€” that was all I needed to hear lol. It's a personal affront to be seen to be 'dithering' or 'faffing'. Usually blood tests make me feel weird … Continue reading Voluntary Medical Procedures →

Whomsoever Whensoever

OCD ritualsWith implied stateAre the worstThat's what's gripped me the last year and a half It stopped being funThere was no relief in writing about anythingBecause the state would remain 'imperfect'Regardless of what I did in-between And now I feel self-conscious againPeople reading what I writeCertain people whom I'd rather they not readAnd I don't … Continue reading Whomsoever Whensoever →

They Have Decided

I have finally 'won' and had a benefits decision go in my favour. The very language of 'winning' and 'losing' comes naturally throughout these processes yet is very telling and is very fucked. Of course, they weaselled out of the back-payment when I didn't even know that that was 'optional'. Thus the state suffers absolutely … Continue reading They Have Decided →

Pitfalls And Costs Of Immobility

Two years…it's taken two years to get a front puncture on my scooter. I've been waiting for it so I have an opportunity to replace the tyre itself as well as the inner tube. These electric scooter inner tubes all have valves which are angled so that they're accessible from the side, since the wheels … Continue reading Pitfalls And Costs Of Immobility →