Mature Content

You can't keep a good woman downDismissive voices only discreditthe ones who're judgingGrowing the voice louderinto a primal scream You cannot deny somebody's realitypast nor presentNor the words they chooseto express themselvesNor judge how they will be interpreted and received Just let them speakTry to listen and to understandWe can see each other eye-to-eyeWithout needing … Continue reading Mature Content →

Proper Nouns Which Linger

I repeat their namesIn my head, spontaneouslyBecause it's triggeringAnd self-torturing If I do itI'll feel the need to repeat the last compulsionOut of feeling too abashed and indignantAnd so the cycle goes All it takes is a silent word to myselfTo set me backwards; What baleful, mortifying names torment me still?I am talking Proper NounsNames … Continue reading Proper Nouns Which Linger →

Contact With A Psychologist

Well it was definitely the right way to go, what I outlined about just making contact with a service which seems actually suitable to begin with. I found a psychology place (what do you call it?) nearby, which has a large team of psychologists. Some of them mention OCD in their profiles, and a few … Continue reading Contact With A Psychologist →

Updates

I'm basically surviving in the same mental state as I was in the hell house. The main limitation for 18 months has been a particularly consuming OCD compulsion. Everything else (including blogging) depends on overcoming that, which I am able to do for variable periods. I've said this before. Once I can do that, everything … Continue reading Updates →

The Price Of Feudalism

There has never been a better advertFor abolishing the monarchy— Funerals cancelledOperations cancelledCompetitive mourning andVirtue-signalling central Police arresting monarchy protestorsSubjects chanting "Long live the King"Companies espousing paid-for 'values'A media PR game for the overruling; All amidst a severe cost of greed crisisA convenient distraction?Meanwhile parliament takes a two-week holidayWhilst the unwashed masses get back to … Continue reading The Price Of Feudalism →

A Sense Of Foreboding 😏

Uhhh my Universal Credit commitments have randomly changed to expecting me to look for work, coinciding (coincidentally) with having a different, male* work coach for my next appointment. I have a task in my Todo List asking me to 'accept the commitments agreed with my work coach'. I've just written a message saying that the … Continue reading A Sense Of Foreboding 😏 →

Confidently Incorrect

Confidently incorrectWhyAre youConfidently incorrect I'm telling youMy rent account is +£157Your own screenshot is telling me thisStop looking at my deposit accountAnd refund me from the rent account 😆 Confidently incorrectHow do I deal with oneWho isConfidently incorrect You're just asserting the same thingOver and over againBut you're not doing the calculationsRe-evaluating your beliefs You … Continue reading Confidently Incorrect →

Reconciling The Past And Present

I'm starting to see a new therapist now. I'm saving a lot of money by not having the car, though that is already made up for by having to deal with energy bills now in the new place. I wasn't paying any energy bills in the shared hell house, so I'm interested to see where … Continue reading Reconciling The Past And Present →

The Children Condemned

Oh dearOh dearWould you look at that?Your grades are not up to the markWoe betideI'm sorry, sonI just…wish you could've been like your sisterWe're going to have to refer you to the disciplinary board; The condemned assembled before us todayYou are lined up in order of gradesAnd we'll proceed from highest to lowestThis is in … Continue reading The Children Condemned →

Parliament Leaks

Lots of drips on the back-benchesDissolve parliament! Damp members laying on the sob storyWet blankets piled on the floor Something in Parliament is rottenThe roof is caving inTrickle-down economics just isn't workingEven the chamber is crying Tory showerTaking the pissDeckchairs on the titanicSinking shipRatsRatsRats The drip, drip, drip of Cuntservative mis-management has officially became a … Continue reading Parliament Leaks →