Mature Content

You can't keep a good woman downDismissive voices only discreditthe ones who're judgingGrowing the voice louderinto a primal scream You cannot deny somebody's realitypast nor presentNor the words they chooseto express themselvesNor judge how they will be interpreted and received Just let them speakTry to listen and to understandWe can see each other eye-to-eyeWithout needing … Continue reading Mature Content →

Selfish Bastard :)

Yeah…no, it's completely not realistic for me to do this whole two-day trip. I was originally planning it as a single afternoon/evening for a reason, and even that wasn't sensible. It's one thing to feel like doing it in moments when I happen to feel better and more capable, but it's when I need to … Continue reading Selfish Bastard 🙂 →

Some Encouragement

I managed to get on top of the OCD on Monday, and rather than feeling overwhelmed by thoughts of the trip was able to turn it around and get fully on top of planning for it, and be able to look forward to it. My friend was going to take care of finding somewhere to … Continue reading Some Encouragement →

Proper Nouns Which Linger

I repeat their namesIn my head, spontaneouslyBecause it's triggeringAnd self-torturing If I do itI'll feel the need to repeat the last compulsionOut of feeling too abashed and indignantAnd so the cycle goes All it takes is a silent word to myselfTo set me backwards; What baleful, mortifying names torment me still?I am talking Proper NounsNames … Continue reading Proper Nouns Which Linger →

Thoughts On The Trip

That trip idea has caused me a real dilemma, like everything does when you're struggling with OCD, never mind mobility issues. I was feeling better knowing that I'd just cancel and not feel bad about it, if I needed to. I was occupied with the task of finding a psychologist. Now I've also learned that … Continue reading Thoughts On The Trip →

Back To WordPress.com

Hello bots I'm back on wordpress.com. Earlier this year when I was considering whether to self-host my blog (to get my own domain and remove ads), I wanted to compare the cost to the wordpress.com Personal plan. At first I thought I was going crazy when I couldn't find information about it since I was … Continue reading Back To WordPress.com →

Contact With A Psychologist

Well it was definitely the right way to go, what I outlined about just making contact with a service which seems actually suitable to begin with. I found a psychology place (what do you call it?) nearby, which has a large team of psychologists. Some of them mention OCD in their profiles, and a few … Continue reading Contact With A Psychologist →

Economics Of Empathy

"Buy cheap, buy twice" has always been something I've lived by. I'd rather have something suitable and buy it once or not have it at all. So I should be doing the same when it comes to therapy. Whether or not it proves to be feasible, the options should only ever be: the good quality, … Continue reading Economics Of Empathy →

Everything On The Table

Man I'm really struggling. I used to be able to find some real optimism and motivation, a goal that I could focus on to take precedence over the OCD, even throughout that ordeal in the shared house. For example one of those times was learning to grow house plants, then collecting them, with the idealistic … Continue reading Everything On The Table →

Pillage The Villagers

"What's so funny?" "Oh…I've just read a witness account about how the nation's mentally ill "formed an orderly ten-mile queue through London's streets to see the Queen's coffin lying in state" …as if it were but a physical representation of the state of the NHS waiting list for mental health treatment…a living monument, a window … Continue reading Pillage The Villagers →