Proper Nouns Which Linger

I repeat their namesIn my head, spontaneouslyBecause it's triggeringAnd self-torturing If I do itI'll feel the need to repeat the last compulsionOut of feeling too abashed and indignantAnd so the cycle goes All it takes is a silent word to myselfTo set me backwards; What baleful, mortifying names torment me still?I am talking Proper NounsNames … Continue reading Proper Nouns Which Linger

Contact With A Psychologist

Well it was definitely the right way to go, what I outlined about just making contact with a service which seems actually suitable to begin with. I found a psychology place (what do you call it?) nearby, which has a large team of psychologists. Some of them mention OCD in their profiles, and a few … Continue reading Contact With A Psychologist

Everything On The Table

Man I'm really struggling. I used to be able to find some real optimism and motivation, a goal that I could focus on to take precedence over the OCD, even throughout that ordeal in the shared house. For example one of those times was learning to grow house plants, then collecting them, with the idealistic … Continue reading Everything On The Table

With Light To See By

It hijacks the mindWhat does it want? All the wrongs of the past to be rightProbably The present is held to ransomNo, you can't have that!Don't dare get enthused, either Of course there isn't a simple solutionOr answerI know thatThat's not what this is; So yeahIt hijacks the mindA mental state connected through traumaReliving once-present … Continue reading With Light To See By