Hamster Enclosure Painting

I've finally finished preparing my hamster enclosure (painting and varnishing it with pet-safe paints). It's really dragged out painfully over many days (12) due to a combination of having to manage OCD alongsideβ€” practising ERP to avoid feeding itβ€” and some trial and error and learning about painting wooden furniture. There were also some modifications … Continue reading Hamster Enclosure Painting

Hamster Preparations

I've made so much progress in sorting through my possessions and either selling them on eBay, giving them away through Freecycle or throwing them away if they weren't useable. All of this clutter has a tangible affect on my thinking, which I've always known but the pull of OCD was stronger. Overcoming OCD to be … Continue reading Hamster Preparations

Emotional Support Amster

I can't hold back any longer, I'm committed to getting an emotional support hamster! I've been more functional in the last week and finally after 6 months of living here I've been able to start organising and tidying things properly, selling some things I don't need on ebay and throwing away or donating other things. … Continue reading Emotional Support Amster

Voluntary Medical Procedures

After recently reading a blog post about giving blood, I decided to face my blood-related queasiness and give it a try. "Don't think about it, just do it!"β€” that was all I needed to hear lol. It's a personal affront to be seen to be 'dithering' or 'faffing'. Usually blood tests make me feel weird … Continue reading Voluntary Medical Procedures

Whomsoever Whensoever

OCD ritualsWith implied stateAre the worstThat's what's gripped me the last year and a half It stopped being funThere was no relief in writing about anythingBecause the state would remain 'imperfect'Regardless of what I did in-between And now I feel self-conscious againPeople reading what I writeCertain people whom I'd rather they not readAnd I don't … Continue reading Whomsoever Whensoever

Fight Response

Whenever the benefits advisor warns me that the Work Capability Assessment process might take agesβ€” e.g. getting the Jobcentre work coach to actually arrange one, then getting a form, then getting an assessment date, then finally getting a decisionβ€” I always respond that it's fine with me, and I don't mind, because it's 'extra time'. … Continue reading Fight Response

Work Capability Assessment Again

Well the work capability assessment is happening soon. I got a letter with a date in December but the benefits advisor wasn't available for then, so I've rearranged it and waiting to hear from him whether he'll be able to make that one. It's been 33 months since the last one, and despite being deemed … Continue reading Work Capability Assessment Again