And there I satAt my wit's endAfter seven months of struggleAnd inexplicable experiences I logged back onto facebookAs my final actMade it plainJust how little of life I cared; There, I glimpsedAmongst it allAfter everything I had experiencedHaving lived on the edge for so longFacing death so many times, alone The faces of those whom … Continue reading Life In The Horror Show
My brain is dumb,I'm dumbing down,I'm dumbing down,I'm losing braincells, My brain is dumb,I'm dumbing down,Turn a wide-open day,Into hours of anxiety and OCD; All of that potential for feeling good,To work towards goals,"Tomorrow's a new day",Until it isn't, And there's no way to reason out of it,Since it's all for nothing,It's all just the … Continue reading Dumbing Down
When living post-trauma,And especially whilst still in a stressful environmentJust doing things, even simple things, can be incredibly difficult; You plan to do things…Then find yourself hours later, finding the energy to get up to do it,Wondering why or how you haven't done it yet,And what you even did do instead; But the truth is, … Continue reading Post-Trauma Patience
I hope that I will live,To write a book some time, Only a book could do it justice,There've just been too many things that have happened; Only a book could possibly chart everything,But, more than that,The parts that other people will find in common,Would really be useful to them; I'm 34 but I feel like … Continue reading 12,425
A Crying Shame
I'm taking a risk—The floor could absolutely quake at any moment,My entire world would shake,Through the seat I'm sitting on,Through my feet on the floor,Through the solid desk my hands and arms are resting on,The computer screen I'm looking at could sway back and forth,The microphone arm could shake,My plants could quiver as the shock … Continue reading A Crying Shame
Trauma Dreams And Memories
I don't usually reflect backwards at the moment because I'm too presently stressed to do it, but last night I dreamt that I was on holiday with family and extended family, and I was in extreme mental distress again so my parents locked me in a cage for being bad. I was ignored by everyone. … Continue reading Trauma Dreams And Memories
I thought I'd never in my life seen anyone with more plot armourthan Bilbo Baggins,But…There's something to be said about the sheer amount of plot armourwhich I've worn so far; Plot armour,Plot biceps,Plot balls! Image by Glauco Gianoglio from Pixabay 🌪
Extra Extraneous Errands!
Here is the next installment ofRobin's Weird Errands,Joyless Jacked-up Jaunts,Soul-sucking Supplementary Shit-shows; For a mini-DIY project I'd been planning for a while,I went to the DIY shop, but the piece of wood I wanted was out of stock,I came back, went on-line,And noticed it was available for click-and-collect; Hmm, ok! Let's try that,Maybe they have … Continue reading Extra Extraneous Errands!
Haunted By A Nightmare
Still alive, still alive,For now,Caring for myself in the most basic of ways,Surviving the emotional pain and getting through this moment only; It is not a time for too much reflection on the past,Not in the present circumstances—A certain degree of emotional safety is required, before delving into that; Oh, the feeling of bottomless abyss … Continue reading Haunted By A Nightmare
Things Which I’m Proud Of
Things which I can be proud of— I've found adaptations to minimise the constant stress of external noise from the city-centre street which I live on, so that I mostly don't notice it.I've survived the zombie housemate.I've carved out this bubble of peace in my room by using some creativity and ingenuity, being able to … Continue reading Things Which I’m Proud Of
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