Hamster Enclosure Painting

I've finally finished preparing my hamster enclosure (painting and varnishing it with pet-safe paints). It's really dragged out painfully over many days (12) due to a combination of having to manage OCD alongsideβ€” practising ERP to avoid feeding itβ€” and some trial and error and learning about painting wooden furniture. There were also some modifications … Continue reading Hamster Enclosure Painting

Hamster Preparations

I've made so much progress in sorting through my possessions and either selling them on eBay, giving them away through Freecycle or throwing them away if they weren't useable. All of this clutter has a tangible affect on my thinking, which I've always known but the pull of OCD was stronger. Overcoming OCD to be … Continue reading Hamster Preparations

Emotional Support Amster

I can't hold back any longer, I'm committed to getting an emotional support hamster! I've been more functional in the last week and finally after 6 months of living here I've been able to start organising and tidying things properly, selling some things I don't need on ebay and throwing away or donating other things. … Continue reading Emotional Support Amster

Voluntary Medical Procedures

After recently reading a blog post about giving blood, I decided to face my blood-related queasiness and give it a try. "Don't think about it, just do it!"β€” that was all I needed to hear lol. It's a personal affront to be seen to be 'dithering' or 'faffing'. Usually blood tests make me feel weird … Continue reading Voluntary Medical Procedures

They Have Decided

I have finally 'won' and had a benefits decision go in my favour. The very language of 'winning' and 'losing' comes naturally throughout these processes yet is very telling and is very fucked. Of course, they weaselled out of the back-payment when I didn't even know that that was 'optional'. Thus the state suffers absolutely … Continue reading They Have Decided

A Concerning Detail

I received a weird response from the benefits advisor after emailing him this week to double-check that he's still ok to come to the Work Capability Assessment next Tuesday morning. Considering the fact that he wasn't able to come to my first one back in February 2020 (which went against me), and his subsequent emphatic … Continue reading A Concerning Detail

A Good Psychologist

I'm quite amazed by my psychologist. She has the same point of view as me on mental health diagnosesβ€” that the label is less important than a person's unique combination of traits and symptoms, and the labels are imperfect tools that are useful as long as they are useful and relevant. She alsoβ€” having established … Continue reading A Good Psychologist