OCD makes life really hard,
And really comes and goes in waves,
By context,
Over weeks or days,
I do sometimes have cleanliness OCD,
Not that my communal standards are such,
But in my own environments,
It can become really troublesome;
For where do you stop?
This is the troubleβ
It seems obvious to clean up that puddle,
From when you spilled a drink,
It seems obvious to pick up a random pair of socks,
Right in the middle of the floor,
You’re obviously going to,
Put that dirty bowl away,
But then I notice that the coasters are really dirty now,
Or,
I can see the grease marks on my glass desk…
Or,
There’s too much visible dirt on the floor;
It’s such an arbitrary thing,
Of what is acceptable and not,
βAnd there is the crux of the problem;
Any kind of imperfection will cause you stress,
Of course it will,
βThat’s why they’re called ‘imperfections’,
But where the barrier is depends upon,
Where your mind and soul are mostly-occupied;
The more-immediate, and encompassing the experience,
The more in-tune that experience is,
With your nature,
The more dynamic, choatic and out-of-human-control,
The higher and higher,
Is the annoyance-tolerance threshold.
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Thanks for explaining it, it helps to learn and comprehend. π
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Thanks Cassa! Thanks for reading and trying to understand ππ. Yes, for me OCD doesn’t exist as long as I am climbing mountains, or skiing etc, or just going for a run. Which is a widely-observed thing anyway.
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So it’s all very much a secondary impact of my knee problems, which is tragic and something that few people can grasp and sympathise with. But then, my revelation a few years ago was that singing and playing guitar/piano, went a long way towards fixing it too. When I had the environment to do it freely without disturbing anyone.
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And with singing especially, daily practise is necessary.
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Well actually I really incorporated it into my lifeβ I was doing voice exercises all the time, whilst doing things around the house. It served multiple purposes. Having the freedom to make sounds and have fun with it, for me, is a hugely beneficial thing!!
Having to hold that in is stressful…:\
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And how do I explain something like that to the council? That’s a long and detailed explanation to arrive at understanding that, and takes a lot of imagination. But it’s crucial the right people understand these things.
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We are all unique individuals. We do not fit in a mould. If the person acknowledges being different to the conformed norm is acceptable and ok, then it is likely the person is willing to work with you to find solutions. (Am I being too technical?)
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No, not at all! It’s not possible to be too technical with me, lol. Ability to think abstractly and technically is such a useful thing, and also vital for true cognitive empathy, especially with complex situations.
Thank you! I agree with what you said completely π. Those people are rare, and having to rely on certain people being able to achieve that level of empathy, is a very uncertain feeling and situation.
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What you just explained actually, is a big problem my family always had and still has, apart from my youngest brother. He’s totally unique amongst them!
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Glad you got a(or two) game changer(s) in your blood line
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Haha, nice way to put it. You’d call me a game changer!?
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Yes I did, you and your younger bro
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π. I have to say that my brother definitely thinks outside the box and is open-minded and flexible! I guess I agree in that sense, thank you!
Awesome, I’m a game-changer lol, yes bitches! π¦Ύ
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I understand you. Utterly
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Really? Thank you!!
I should mention that I included a photo at the bottom of the poem, of me sticking my head in a pool of water in a brook bubbling of out a mountain-side. The photo was taken in Yosemite National Park in California, in 2009.
I think I should start including better descriptions of images! π
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Oh wow! What an amazing experience that must have been. Thankyou so much for thinking of me. It makes such a difference. Thankyou π
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It really was!! And you’re welcome, I’m really happy if I was able to help! Thanks π
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Now I get it, You do have OCD isn’t it. You should get used to certain things. Life is too fragile to stress on something and waste our time on it. Just Live π But I must say you have written good. π π
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