Philosophical Perspectives On Struggle

Everyone reaches their limit at some point,And when that happens, shutting down is the right thing to do,You can never feel bad or guilty for that; When it's either that or killing yourself,You have nothing to lose; It's at that point that you put your community and supportive relationships and whatever safety net welfare system … Continue reading Philosophical Perspectives On Struggle →

OCD, Difficulty And Capabilities

OCD without support is the hardest thing in the world,Not that OCD with support is necessarily easy (I imagine), But OCD without support is like having your legs blown off,And not being given prosthetics or physiotherapy; It's the most difficult thing I've ever experienced,Especially because my current circumstances encourage relapses and loss of hard-won progress. … Continue reading OCD, Difficulty And Capabilities →

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I hope that I will live,To write a book some time, Only a book could do it justice,There've just been too many things that have happened; Only a book could possibly chart everything,But, more than that,The parts that other people will find in common,Would really be useful to them; I'm 34 but I feel like … Continue reading 12,425 →

Facing Environmental Struggles

My housemate turned the living room into a gym, and he's having friends over all the time to use it with him. I just went to ask him to stop dropping the weights (after asking him yesterday) and he was in there with 2 friends today with the door closed. The living room is a … Continue reading Facing Environmental Struggles →

God Damnit

You've derailed my day,And now I'm going to fucking pay, It wasn't supposed to start this way,Now everything is feeling mehh! You've derailed my day,And now I'm going to fucking pay, But I am going to restart today.Because eventually, everything will be OK. (And you will be most unequivocally ensconced in hell 😁). 🌪

Hang In There, Me

Hang in there, me,Hang in there, me,Things are starting to come towards me, I've raised more than the target,So thank you to everybody!And I've chosen the perfect psychiatrist,I just wish it wasn't a weekend now! But never mind,This psychiatrist is perfect,They will understand my whole situation,I just cannot wait for that; And I so want … Continue reading Hang In There, Me →

God Does Not Play Dice

He plays dice with Rubik's Cubes. I've often used the following trick,To make difficult things seem easier— I tell myself,At least it's not as hard as quantum mechanics,Which has never failed me; However, it now begs the question— Which is easier... Doing quantum mechanics with a more-or-less healthy mind?Recovering from trauma-induced OCD and dissociative habits? … Continue reading God Does Not Play Dice →