Last night's Eurovision semi-final was the first Eurovision show I've watched in about 20 years. I've been listening to some of the entrants' songs through youtube for a month already, so I was familiar with the skills and production quality of the various artists, including many of their great live performances. I had to give … Continue reading Weird Eurovision Experience
A universe rendedSpherical shockwave of disturbance roaring outwardSide-effects propagating at the speed of sound and lightSecondary rips in the fabric of eveningAt gradually reducing amplitudesYet no less cataclysmic as the motorbike rounds distant corners and the prick riding it recedes into the far distanceAnd only thenCan it no longer be heardBut the anticipation, frustration and … Continue reading Sensory Cataclysm
I've noticed that other people don't always notice when there's something crawling on them, like a fly? That some people can actually put up with it, or not even notice it? Well I just saw a person on TV with a fly crawling all over their upturned palm whilst they continued what they were doing. … Continue reading Hypersensitivities
Economics Of Empathy
"Buy cheap, buy twice" has always been something I've lived by. I'd rather have something suitable and buy it once or not have it at all. So I should be doing the same when it comes to therapy. Whether or not it proves to be feasible, the options should only ever be: the good quality, … Continue reading Economics Of Empathy
House Of Horrors
What if they won't believe me,Now that things happen to be cleaner? The new Salvation Army helper,Knows only of the current state of things; Oh, two years of horrendous experiences,Indescribable imagery flashing before my mind's eye,All I can offer is examples,Struggling to form the sentences…How can you describe that? What if they won't believe me,Now … Continue reading House Of Horrors
A New Court Date And Another Viewing
I've been struggling a lot lately with OCD and motivation. It's been a while since I was able to get beyond the basic tasks in a day and do extra things I wanted to do. Developments: My Salvation Army support person is changing. This is a good thing as although the previous one meant well, … Continue reading A New Court Date And Another Viewing
I don't see an idealised version of the environment around me,I see, hear, smell, feel,All of the imperfections and disjointedness,Which distinguish it from a smoothly-flowing, remote location in the outdoors,Where everything is logical and has a place; Nobody ever desired to breathe in the heated up glossy paint off the surface of a radiator,Or to … Continue reading Sensory Cues
Yesterday my Salvation Army support person turned up with three presents from a nearby school. I assumed they were boxes of chocolate and was considering just adding them to the donations pile at Tesco because of the fact I'm really sensitive to changing my diet at the moment and wary of anything upsetting the delicate … Continue reading Serotonin Sensitivity!
Erasure Of Disgust
Sometimes, when I see something so disgusting,I can't stop bringing it back to mind,Nor do anything else,Until I've found the 'right' way to reconcile this with the world; In fact, now I remember writing about this on here before;Anyway, there are times in survival mode I am able to numb myself to such things,Other times … Continue reading Erasure Of Disgust
The irony; I sometimes wonder…If the easy and open way in which I talk about my mental health struggles,The blunt, curated insight I have into them,The clarity of my mental list of steps to tackle them… Does it ever come across as disarming or evendisingenuous,To people who live outside in the world with all the … Continue reading The Irony!
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