OCD

It's been a long five days since speaking to that therapist on the phone, because I had the option of having an appointment on Thursday, too. I knew I needed a few more days for my sleep to adjust to make it more practicable. So I chose Tuesday this week for the first one, at … Continue reading OCD →

Busy With Tasks

I've been very busy since moving into the new place. First I was researching and ordering a few things I needed— a clothes dryer, a washing machine. Then I was researching carpets, getting a quote done and going to a carpet shop to order one. And planning ahead to figure out how I can most … Continue reading Busy With Tasks →

A Chain Reaction

I've been unable to look after my car the last several months due to OCD, so the battery eventually ran flat.I couldn't get the foot pump from the boot of my car, which I use to top up my scooter tires once a week to prevent punctures. Since Jan 2021 I haven't had a puncture … Continue reading A Chain Reaction →

A Crying Shame

I'm taking a risk—The floor could absolutely quake at any moment,My entire world would shake,Through the seat I'm sitting on,Through my feet on the floor,Through the solid desk my hands and arms are resting on,The computer screen I'm looking at could sway back and forth,The microphone arm could shake,My plants could quiver as the shock … Continue reading A Crying Shame →

Mentally Documenting Time

I must document my life,Every last little piece of time, What happened in the hour it took me to get out of bed?What have I done since that, since then,Exactly how did I get to this point? Overly-aware of the finiteness of life, I must make it all count,Clawing and scraping, for scraps… I must … Continue reading Mentally Documenting Time →

The Fortress At Skull’s Gap

They said that this fortress was impenetrable,They implied that nothing could bring down its grand walls,Built with multiple layers of redundancy,And constructed in its minutest detail by the finest bricklayers and craftsmen, "There is no danger that this fortress will be breached. The fortress is unbreachable and nothing but inconvenience will be suffered by its … Continue reading The Fortress At Skull’s Gap →

Captive

I've been held captive,In my own mind, And a crucial factor in moving onwards,Is to revel in the freedom,Of looking forwards; I've long been fascinated by other peoples' stories,Stories of people who have survived immense hardships,Who have survived long periods of isolation,And restriction of their freedoms; It's become conclusively clear to me,That recovery from past … Continue reading Captive →

Goodness Gracious

God, guilt generated,Gets galling, grating, Giving gentle grace,Goodly galvanising. Glory granted Gerd 🌪

An Adventurous Moon

He'd at once found, a safe place to orbit,A world of peace and calm, He'd bathed in the reflected light of wisdom,Looked down in wonder, at accepting oceans; Humble mountains,And noble deserts,He'd adopted these qualities,Into his turbulent mantle; But then,The subtle stirring of gravitational waves,Signalled the approach of a wandering black hole, His orbit was … Continue reading An Adventurous Moon →

Rebirth

After self-inflicted pain and torment,Is possible a rebirth, It's always possible,To stop looking back and to move forwards, And in doing so,In truly moving onwards positively again,You connect with your fundamental self,Connect with your deep-seated, but hidden self-compassion, It's always possible,And it's always worth it,And it's just such a relief,To leave that torment behind! After … Continue reading Rebirth →