Found A Psychologist

I accepted the necessity of finding a remote specialist and this morning found one based in Edinburgh of all places (where I've previously lived for 6 years), whom I called up to schedule a free consultation call. Her website was very promising since she mostly spoke about OCD, complex trauma and PTSD. On the call … Continue reading Found A Psychologist →

Still Looking For An OCD Therapist

I'm still following up with a couple of psychology places to try to get some private sessions with someone who's hopefully equipped to deal with OCD. It really is such a specialist area and skillset. I emailed the most hopeful option (in-person sessions, most professional-looking) on Monday, and this time got an out-of-office reply that … Continue reading Still Looking For An OCD Therapist →

Emergency Dental Treatment

Around six months ago a chip broke off one of my molar teeth. Some weeks after that a larger piece was leveraged off it. I am basically missing a whole crown (I didn't even know any dental anatomy until now). I haven't been able to do anything about it yet for a few reasons, the … Continue reading Emergency Dental Treatment →

What’s an OCD Specialist?

I told my friends I can't do the trip, which is a weight off :). I've decided I need to look into alternate options for a psychologist since the place I found is taking a while to find space for me, and besides their profile didn't mention 'ERP' which is a critical checkmark for determining … Continue reading What’s an OCD Specialist? →

Selfish Bastard :)

Yeah…no, it's completely not realistic for me to do this whole two-day trip. I was originally planning it as a single afternoon/evening for a reason, and even that wasn't sensible. It's one thing to feel like doing it in moments when I happen to feel better and more capable, but it's when I need to … Continue reading Selfish Bastard 🙂 →

Some Encouragement

I managed to get on top of the OCD on Monday, and rather than feeling overwhelmed by thoughts of the trip was able to turn it around and get fully on top of planning for it, and be able to look forward to it. My friend was going to take care of finding somewhere to … Continue reading Some Encouragement →

Proper Nouns Which Linger

I repeat their namesIn my head, spontaneouslyBecause it's triggeringAnd self-torturing If I do itI'll feel the need to repeat the last compulsionOut of feeling too abashed and indignantAnd so the cycle goes All it takes is a silent word to myselfTo set me backwards; What baleful, mortifying names torment me still?I am talking Proper NounsNames … Continue reading Proper Nouns Which Linger →

Thoughts On The Trip

That trip idea has caused me a real dilemma, like everything does when you're struggling with OCD, never mind mobility issues. I was feeling better knowing that I'd just cancel and not feel bad about it, if I needed to. I was occupied with the task of finding a psychologist. Now I've also learned that … Continue reading Thoughts On The Trip →

Contact With A Psychologist

Well it was definitely the right way to go, what I outlined about just making contact with a service which seems actually suitable to begin with. I found a psychology place (what do you call it?) nearby, which has a large team of psychologists. Some of them mention OCD in their profiles, and a few … Continue reading Contact With A Psychologist →

Everything On The Table

Man I'm really struggling. I used to be able to find some real optimism and motivation, a goal that I could focus on to take precedence over the OCD, even throughout that ordeal in the shared house. For example one of those times was learning to grow house plants, then collecting them, with the idealistic … Continue reading Everything On The Table →