What if they won't believe me,Now that things happen to be cleaner? The new Salvation Army helper,Knows only of the current state of things; Oh, two years of horrendous experiences,Indescribable imagery flashing before my mind's eye,All I can offer is examples,Struggling to form the sentencesβ¦How can you describe that? What if they won't believe me,Now … Continue reading House Of Horrors
Tag: Environment
Flat Viewing
The flat viewing went well, it basically looked exactly like in the photos. The landlord (or whoever it was showing me around) seemed very surprised that I'd managed to find pictures online, much less up-to-date ones. They were on an old advert on onthemarket.com π€·ββοΈ. Anyway there were five viewings in total and I was … Continue reading Flat Viewing
Could It Be Progress?
Oh my god, Sarah from Salvation Army just came round saying she had good news. I'd been waiting too expectantly on the letter from the court (to decide my 1-bed housing fate) which hadn't arrived, so I was intrigued. She'd spoken to another person at the council who has decided that since my birthday is … Continue reading Could It Be Progress?
Sensory Cues
I don't see an idealised version of the environment around me,I see, hear, smell, feel,All of the imperfections and disjointedness,Which distinguish it from a smoothly-flowing, remote location in the outdoors,Where everything is logical and has a place; Nobody ever desired to breathe in the heated up glossy paint off the surface of a radiator,Or to … Continue reading Sensory Cues
A Year Of Bullshit
The last year has been so unbelievably difficultβ¦it's been one thing that all of my regular social contact is through text, phone call and video call for two years, but that was getting me a long way. The friends I had made and been in contact with were so incredibly helpful and supportive. But over … Continue reading A Year Of Bullshit
The Plods Come Marchingβ¦AGAIN!
Seriously, I have enough I'm dealing withβ¦with OCD, trying to accomplish things, and I was lying on my bed recovering from the stress of it all having finally managed to wash, whenβ¦ knock knock knock What the fuck. Knocking on my window again, seriously? I waitedβ¦ knock knock knock Checked my security camera feedβ¦black vests … Continue reading The Plods Come Marchingβ¦AGAIN!
Happy ChristmASMR
A friend sent me pictures of themselves on a sunny beach eating ice cream on christmas day. I wanted to respond with something in such stark comparison as to appear satirical, to demonstrate the difference between our christmas day scenes. When I went outside I wasn't disappointed. On christmas day I didn't wake up until … Continue reading Happy ChristmASMR
I Don’t Like The Drugs But The Drugs Like Me
Yesterday the thought occurred to me to go back meticulously through my security camera recordings from the several days before November 6th, as this was when my box of moving boxes (bought for me by the Salvation Army) was mysteriously stolen from the living room where I'd left it against the wall. It was a … Continue reading I Don’t Like The Drugs But The Drugs Like Me
Another Solution
The solutions which keep me going,Amidst an environment which makes no sense,And people whom defy explanation, Are a reflection of some amount of fortune for which I am glad,And my cast-iron will and indignation to make it through,Solving problems one by one,To survive and look back at this fucking place from safety. If you haven't … Continue reading Another Solution
Housemate F Is Gone!!??
Ding dong housemate F is dead π. It seems that the wanted housemate's lock has been replaced!!! I just went out the front of the house and saw a couple of discarded door locks on a shelf by the front door πππ. He's already been barred from the house!!?? Probably had an actual court eviction … Continue reading Housemate F Is Gone!!??
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