Horses For Courses For Farces

Left with time to spare and set out on the scooter— flat tyre. Shit shit shit, back inside, google a taxi company! Messaged the benefits advisor to tell him I was behind on time now, but got there in time anyway. Then he told me that he was very sorry but would have to leave … Continue reading Horses For Courses For Farces →

Contact With A Psychologist

Well it was definitely the right way to go, what I outlined about just making contact with a service which seems actually suitable to begin with. I found a psychology place (what do you call it?) nearby, which has a large team of psychologists. Some of them mention OCD in their profiles, and a few … Continue reading Contact With A Psychologist →

Updates

I'm basically surviving in the same mental state as I was in the hell house. The main limitation for 18 months has been a particularly consuming OCD compulsion. Everything else (including blogging) depends on overcoming that, which I am able to do for variable periods. I've said this before. Once I can do that, everything … Continue reading Updates →

A Sense Of Foreboding 😏

Uhhh my Universal Credit commitments have randomly changed to expecting me to look for work, coinciding (coincidentally) with having a different, male* work coach for my next appointment. I have a task in my Todo List asking me to 'accept the commitments agreed with my work coach'. I've just written a message saying that the … Continue reading A Sense Of Foreboding 😏 →

Proving My Knee Injuries

Another thing I've been doing since moving in is trying to get this Work Capability Assessment form out of the way. Stepping Forward couldn't see me until the 3 weeks into the 1 month deadline for returning it. Then I needed to go back to the doctor to chase up a supporting letter I needed … Continue reading Proving My Knee Injuries →

Busy With Tasks

I've been very busy since moving into the new place. First I was researching and ordering a few things I needed— a clothes dryer, a washing machine. Then I was researching carpets, getting a quote done and going to a carpet shop to order one. And planning ahead to figure out how I can most … Continue reading Busy With Tasks →

Selling The Car

I have to sell my car in the end— it turns out that the parking at this residential block is owned by particular flats. There is in fact a map on the front door showing where each flat's parking space is, and the unmarked (and unsignposted) gravelly area at the front of the building used … Continue reading Selling The Car →

Work Capability Assessment

I went to Stepping Forward today to complete the Work Capability Assessment form. It's the final hurdle I need to pass before I feel I can breathe a sigh of relief, since being deemed not capable of working is essential for me to maintain receiving Universal Credit (incl. rent payments) without being forced to look … Continue reading Work Capability Assessment →

Home Improvements With Opportunity OCD

I've been totally disabled by OCD for a week. This is the kind of OCD which hits me when my circumstances show signs of improving or some good event happens. Because I'm especially prone to OCD at the moment, these events are triggering. Also the particular OCD compulsion which has affected me for the past … Continue reading Home Improvements With Opportunity OCD →

I Did It

I somehow always seem to watch the perfect documentaries at the right time— my new interest in the law beginning last autumn inspired me to watch all of Forensic Files which was actually helpful. Lately I've been absorbed in watching "I Shouldn't Be Alive" which is epic stories of survival with the survivors ranging in … Continue reading I Did It →