For. Fuck’s. Sake

I sometimes write creatively perhaps in a way which isn't always immediately obvious, especially when partially-inspired by personal experiences. I enjoy writing in first-person with a subtly-satirical style. Please read tags if unsure! I came out here for some peace and quietWhich was going just fine, untilThat Mr. Musk moved in next door Now even … Continue reading For. Fuck’s. Sake →

Proving My Knee Injuries

Another thing I've been doing since moving in is trying to get this Work Capability Assessment form out of the way. Stepping Forward couldn't see me until the 3 weeks into the 1 month deadline for returning it. Then I needed to go back to the doctor to chase up a supporting letter I needed … Continue reading Proving My Knee Injuries →

Busy With Tasks

I've been very busy since moving into the new place. First I was researching and ordering a few things I needed— a clothes dryer, a washing machine. Then I was researching carpets, getting a quote done and going to a carpet shop to order one. And planning ahead to figure out how I can most … Continue reading Busy With Tasks →

Selling The Car

I have to sell my car in the end— it turns out that the parking at this residential block is owned by particular flats. There is in fact a map on the front door showing where each flat's parking space is, and the unmarked (and unsignposted) gravelly area at the front of the building used … Continue reading Selling The Car →

Why You So Small!? 🐕‍🦺

Little MistyWhat are you doingBeing so small? I can't believe she was so smallWhenever I went to visit herShe was smaller than the last time I guess up-closeShe looked bigger whilst nosing herNosing her endlesslyOn her little black nose Why was she so small?Wagging her tail and flapping her earsSquealing in excitementTo see her "favourite" … Continue reading Why You So Small!? 🐕‍🦺 →

Life In The Horror Show

And there I satAt my wit's endAfter seven months of struggleAnd inexplicable experiences I logged back onto facebookAs my final actMade it plainJust how little of life I cared; There, I glimpsedAmongst it allAfter everything I had experiencedHaving lived on the edge for so longFacing death so many times, alone The faces of those whom … Continue reading Life In The Horror Show →

Her Presence Is Real

She's so worth itDeserves everythingEverything good to happen Shows so much courageShe keeps tryingIn a relentlessly-hostile world; I believe in good thingsGood peopleAnd good things happening Somehow, somewhenLonger-termThings can change; She has the honestyIs rightfully indignantKnowing the truth within herself Many qualities which give me hope. 🌪

Oven Of ’22

Bloody hellIt's hotThe great 'oven' of '22 I won't lieI've always found extreme weather excitingEven though obviously undesirable;I think we all feel that with things like thunderstorms But at least today you can't use the typical British qualifierOf unbearable humidity, making it hotter;The air's dry as a desert; Out of the sun, it's still bearableBut … Continue reading Oven Of ’22 →

OCD, Uncertainty and Minor Miracles

Since moving into this new, less stressful placeI've been making an extra pushTo fight my worst OCD compulsions Through the haze and confusion and anxietyI have been realising, only in glimpsesMy new situationThe reality of it; Wow it's not easyResisting OCDReaching junctures upon which you could go backwardsOr continue the improvement forwards; Last week,I joined … Continue reading OCD, Uncertainty and Minor Miracles →

Work Capability Assessment

I went to Stepping Forward today to complete the Work Capability Assessment form. It's the final hurdle I need to pass before I feel I can breathe a sigh of relief, since being deemed not capable of working is essential for me to maintain receiving Universal Credit (incl. rent payments) without being forced to look … Continue reading Work Capability Assessment →