In the end I opened myself up even more and explained even more directly my paranoia of them becoming frustrated with me about me not being able to get stuff done, which as I'd mentioned was an irrational fear with the person I was dealing with, who is a natural empath. As irrational as I … Continue reading Fear Of Conditionality
Category: Anxiety
Finite Resource
Congratulations, You have completed all the thoughtsThere is nothing left to think; Save some thoughts for me, I'm sorryThere aren't any left, You selfish bastard! πͺοΈ
Changes Nothing
I have to rememberHow even in June last yearI was able to find those reasons to keep goingAnd I have to use the same ones nowAs I still await my fateOn where and when I will be housed; Two years of practical accommodation instabilityAlmost one year of actual, hardline instabilityBut the rules are the sameIt's … Continue reading Changes Nothing
House Of Horrors
What if they won't believe me,Now that things happen to be cleaner? The new Salvation Army helper,Knows only of the current state of things; Oh, two years of horrendous experiences,Indescribable imagery flashing before my mind's eye,All I can offer is examples,Struggling to form the sentencesβ¦How can you describe that? What if they won't believe me,Now … Continue reading House Of Horrors
Unhouseable
"Ohh we've got flatsWe'll get him in one!" Did you mention it has to be ground floor? "I'll let them know", Offered a viewing'Ground floor' flatLooked it up on streetviewEntryway all full of stepsLooked to my rightMetres awayThe busy dual carriageway π, Nope, sorry,I'm too disabled for that; "You've got your viewing today!Are you excited?", … Continue reading Unhouseable
Dress Rehearsal
(My PIP tribunal hearing is tomorrowβ¦it was in my calendar as tomorrow the whole time, but on this occasion I was so sure in my memory of it being today that I didn't check beforehandβ¦π.) At the risk of sounding paranoidβ¦I now look over my shoulder constantly,Whenever going in and out of the house; Whilst … Continue reading Dress Rehearsal
Dismembering
I'mβ¦freaked out! I was checking my camera recordings just to see if the bin men came today (rather than just check the bin π), then randomly noticed there were tons of recordings this evening so looked at a couple to see what they wereβ just a lot of people walking or driving past today. I … Continue reading Dismembering
Leaving Fort Plante
I'm alone in the house, Afraid to leave my room, This house is the least secure place in existence, I've got things to do, though, So I'm going to have to try it, If I you don't hear from me again, you know why π. Also call Forensic Files and make sure I'm an episode, … Continue reading Leaving Fort Plante
Say Please
Fuck you I can no longer make that runway!Iβm going to have to ditch!! RS 1987, please don't be rudeβ Alert the coastguard!! β¦Say please, RS 1987, Please alert the goddamn-motherfucking-coastguard now!!!ARRRRrggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!Over and oβ β¦β¦β¦ β¦M-my god,I'm s-so glad to see youβ¦th-thank you, thank you!! β¦What is your name? My nameβ¦β¦β¦Is Robin Smith. CAPTAIN ROBIN … Continue reading Say Please
Deadstick Landing
I can literally see a runway off to my right! Ok, stand by for vectorβ¦Turn left heading two-niner-zero, maintain flight level one-hundred, And free to use any runway, yeah? β¦ How many souls on board? Just oneβ¦me,I repeat this is a Mayday! Negative RS 1987, maintain holding pattern,All runways are currently occupied, But I have … Continue reading Deadstick Landing
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