Because We Said So

Ouawww mayyte, you over thereConspicuous individuals!Yes, you!Can we have your rape alarms?You are under arrestOn suspicion of potentially thinking aboutPossibly maybeAt some point in the future should circumstances conspireOf helping a target womenYes that's a plural when it should be singularOn a night outSo hit the deckPut your arms behind your backWe don't support your … Continue reading Because We Said So →

Sensory Cataclysm

A universe rendedSpherical shockwave of disturbance roaring outwardSide-effects propagating at the speed of sound and lightSecondary rips in the fabric of eveningAt gradually reducing amplitudesYet no less cataclysmic as the motorbike rounds distant corners and the prick riding it recedes into the far distanceAnd only thenCan it no longer be heardBut the anticipation, frustration and … Continue reading Sensory Cataclysm →

Stay Of Execution

I was looking forward to having a relatively good weekend,I was on the up again for a few days,But the person from Salvation Army's been phoning spontaneously again,Rather than the pre-arranged calls I originally requested; And they asked me for the thousandth time—When is it you're 35 again?Because that's the milestone that makes me deserving … Continue reading Stay Of Execution →

I Cannot Be Here

This is so hard,I feel so stressed and ill,That one housemate getting back has made everything so much harder,I knew this would happen, I cleaned the toilet twice today already,And I just went in the bathroom again and the toilet had everything on it,So I had to clean it quickly; It's absolutely horrendous to be … Continue reading I Cannot Be Here →

I’m So Exhausted

I'm so exhausted,From battling with everything stacked against me, In multiple directions I have to struggle to get anywhere near to what I need,I was only able to make progress with help from the Green Health and Stepping Forward charities,And it seems like I've lost the support of both, now;Sarah went into planned surgery without … Continue reading I’m So Exhausted →

The Lost Things

I don't know how this happens—I sometimes lose things,Within such a small physical space,And also such a small amount of time; It happened repeatedly, last year,Whilst living in the car—One moment I could be holding something,Ten seconds later, it was gone,Sometimes irretrievably; It was always different reasons—Once, it was a black item,And it fell between … Continue reading The Lost Things →

Tourettes-Like Demons

Oh dear,This is exhausting, As well as the ruminating,—This Tourettes-like muscle tensing; I usually have both,At the same time,And increases in rumination,Mean increases in tensing; But even without rumination,Or even OCD,Still, there's the battle,With endless stomach-crunching; —Fine, you know what,I'll come clean,Here is the full f***ing list,Of my Tourettes-like things: Voluntary blinking,Voluntary abdominal tensing,Voluntary eye … Continue reading Tourettes-Like Demons →