I sometimes wonder…
If the easy and open way in which I talk about my mental health struggles,
The blunt, curated insight I have into them,
The clarity of my mental list of steps to tackle them…
Does it ever come across as disarming or even
To people who live outside in the world with all the prejudices it carries?
If I am so open and direct in describing my personal experience and how I feel…
Then wouldn’t it have been obvious sooner and how have I come this far without help or simply recognition?
And there is the brutal, yet illustrative irony,
And the source of so much trauma;
The irony is that it fell on deaf ears and worse,
OCD is a very serious disorder and I sometimes cannot believe I survived so long without any outlet for it.