It’s so hard to be absorbed in repetitive OCD body tic obsessions,
To this extent,
I’ve been suspending disbelief, living day by day,
Hour by hour,
Knowing that it’s a temporary holding period,
Biding my time, playing the survival game,
Until I can really start to improve;
I started seeing a counsellor last Friday,
And I have another appointment today,
It’s a huge relief, to finally be there,
To have this opportunity,
Although it is quite painstaking,
Since there’s so much to get through,
And when my days are soβ¦
Out of my control when hours are spent on these obsessions,
It’s hard not to feel impatient;
But I just need to remain patient,
I do have better days,
And there is now a stable, mid-term trajectory of improvement,
Things are improving over time now,
I just have to keep trying, trying,
To reach that state where I can go outside of myself and these obsessions,
And actually start to be in myself,
And experience the world,
Uninterrupted,
Again.
Well that’s new. A constructive, optimistic mental health poem that came naturally, spontaneously and which rhymes, flows fluentlyβ¦ I have been finding it harder to put events into prosey words lately, which was initially all I wrote. It’s a different creative state to be in which can’t be found but comes when it’s needed.
It’s actually quite strange because rhymes and rhythm come without me even noticing until I re-read it. Whereas in other things I write, it’s more of a conscious, gradual process. But putting my feelings and emotions into words is the easiest thing, because it’s something which already exists. And it’s highly therapeutic. Good to know it’s still there.
πͺ
Good one RoBIN!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you so much! π
LikeLiked by 1 person
I really appreciate it. And the spelling of my name that you did! π
LikeLiked by 1 person
You’re welcome!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Wishing you the best. Blessings.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you! π
LikeLike
I think living day by day and hour by hour can really help to keep us in a place of peace and enable us to cope so much better with life. All the best!
LikeLiked by 1 person
One step at a time RoBIN. That’s what I tell myself everyday. Your poem was beautiful. Thank you for sharing. I’m happy I found your blog!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you so much! That was awesome feedback and that made me really happy to think it might’ve helped you.
You are totally correct :).
LikeLiked by 1 person
(About one step at a time, I mean lol).
LikeLiked by 1 person
As I used to do, I will leave music for you:
LikeLiked by 2 people
Thank you so much Alexandra! That’s really kind. I am listening now π.
LikeLiked by 1 person
π
LikeLiked by 1 person
How are you doing?
LikeLiked by 1 person
I’m doing great, Robin! How about you? I gladly can see you having major positive transformations in your life, which you deserve. π
LikeLike
It’s a good song actually!
LikeLike
Remember you did the same letter words a few in a row to form a poem? Your creativity fell out and formed them.
LikeLiked by 2 people
Haha, yeah :D. I’m still stuck because of the unfinished one! Ok, I’m going to work on that now xD
LikeLike
But that’s a very different kind of creativity. In fact it’s the opposite of these kind of poemsβ because these emotional, mental health ones come out in one piece, unfinished and I so rarely feel the need to change anything. With this one I changed nothing at all, which made it even more surprising that I enjoyed the rhythm of it so much. And thankfully OCD wasn’t affecting the actual typing of it, and interrupting my flow.
With the tautogram onesβ everything is up in the air from the beginningβ the subject, the words, the rhythm. And an important part of it is deciding on a number of paragraphs/verses, because otherwise you can keep finding tantalising words to use (I look at word lists for them), and keep making it longer, or the quality suffers.
LikeLiked by 1 person
It does require rework, rejig, reshuffle…
LikeLiked by 1 person
Yeahβ absolutely! I did make great progress with it earlier, but it’ll take another 1/2 goes to finish it :). It’s taken shape now though! I’m really excited about how it’s going to end up π.
LikeLike
Look forward to reading it.
LikeLiked by 1 person