Requirements

Support,
Cannot,
Depend,
On diagnosis,
Because otherwise,
You’re,
Invalidating,
The intense suffering;

Where has,
All,
The humanity,
Gone?
Whatever happened,
To,
Helping out,
Family,
And,
Friends,
And,
Community?

The heart is all gone,
That,
Is,
Horrific;

You’re only deserving,
Of,
Help,
If you have formal documentation;

That,
Is,
So,
Fucked up,
It is,
Beyond,
Words.

I am stressed for the same reasons as usual,
And the autism assessment call is soon,
But I haven’t finished the 17 page questionnaire,
And I’ve been trying to reschedule the call since Friday,
But they’re taking forever to get back.
Now I am fearing,
They want to go ahead with the call,
Without even seeing the questionnaire first.

And regardless of the assessment,
The level of stress I am under is not acceptable,
For another day longer.
I have raged,
I have screamed,
And slammed doors,
And that is so not me,
But I am cornered.

πŸŒͺ

13 thoughts on “Requirements

      1. I’m doing ok Robin. I hope you can sort things out. It is just horrible it being like this.

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    1. Thanks :). Yeah, there are such stringent criteria for everything. I’m the classic kind of person to fall through the gaps. I have been too high functioning for my own good.

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    1. Yes, thank you πŸ€—. Just glad I am able to find other empathic people through wordpress!

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