Free!
It feels like I’ve finished my homework,
And I’m nothing if not persistent;
These last 10 days,
I finally freed myself from the guilt,
Indecision and lack of momentum,
Towards things like cleaning my car or fixing my scooter,
The job had become intimidating,
Besides the anxiety factors,
But what really freed me up,
Was taking pleasure in taking a bite out of the task each day,
βIt didn’t matter how big,
Just that I had done one more thing towards fixing the scooter,
And regaining physical mobility!
After spending the afternoon on my car,
Tonight I came within sight of my goal,
So I pushed to see how far I could get with one more eveningβ¦
But the 6 months for which my scooter had sat unused,
Really finished off the battery,
And, to be honest,
I was living in the car when I first got the scooter,
And limited in my capacity for proper maintenance;
So a fresh start with a fresh battery,
And after some more fiddling with that dodgy disk brake,
I realised that would need replacing (upgrading) too;
One last push,
One last expenditure of money into this project,
The bank is empty,
But this is what it means to me,
This is what it means to me to regain my mobility,
To be able to take trips down by the river again,
I can’t even begin to explain how important it was,
Regaining my mobility for those 5 months after so many years of feeling so useless,
I simply will take ‘no’ for an answer no longer!
πͺ
π»πππππ
π πΆπ πͺππππ πͺ 
This is great to hear. The path from the picture looks amazing. Love this kind of landscapes.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks! It was really nice π and always empty of people. Plus insanely fun to cheekily go fast around on the scooterβ¦lol, a perfect racetrack!
LikeLiked by 1 person
And if you fall off it’s a soft landing π.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I am so glad for you, Robimile.π
LikeLiked by 1 person
Haha, thanks Margie! Me too :D.
LikeLike
Margie it’s amazing how nice it is when you really clean stuff in your car! I actually just cleaned my windscreen for the first time in 4 years π. And just the dashboard looks so much different. Just looks so brand new!
LikeLike
Robin
LikeLiked by 1 person
Great! “How do we eat an elephant? Little by little.’ Says the little ant….
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hahaha, exactly! This was exactly what I was thinking of. Our headteacher said it once in an assemblyβ “How do you eat an elephant? One teaspoon at a time”. Not sure why you’d use a teaspoon to eat an elephant. But anyway it stuck in my head, especially for the absurd phrasing of it lol.
LikeLike
I didnβt know you were disabled Robin. I know what it is like not to be able to walk, or even see. I really do understand how great it mudt be for you now, with your scooter.
This has found me on a very sad day. I wish I could come out with you on that scooter. Have a GREAT time now. Xx
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hi, well, I have severe arthritis in one knee and quite bad in the other, so I’m very limited with walking distances. I still at times appear very agile over short distances, though, as I’m scrupulous about not pushing my knees too far and I’m otherwise healthy and strong.
Walking round the supermarket is the limit for one go, getting about 5-10 things at a time. I’ve always been very athletic so that helps with stability and not limping. All of that disguises the severity of the problem which you can only really get an idea of by reading my medical reports.
I’ve had 5 surgeries on one knee and 1 on the other. The scooter opened up so many possibilitiesβ such as not worrying about how far I have to park from things! Massive stress-relief!! Riding the scooter was also very good for strengthening my legs, because you have to balance over bumps so it’s very good for improving fast-twitch muscles which are crucial for balance and support of the knee.
It’s one thing to understand those complexities myself, but to communicate those to people is a nightmare!! ππ€¦ββοΈ.
So, nobody would label me as disabled but I’ve definitely been very disabled with certain things (walking more than 1-200 metres at a time or walking quickly). Combined with age and my youthful appearance I’ve felt the stigmaβ¦
LikeLike
Also stairs are impossible except occasionally in an emergency. So I have crutches for whenever there’s no lift in a public place.
LikeLike
In the worst case I’ve had people vehemently tell me that I’m using it as an excuse for not exercisingβ¦despite being an extremely active person by nature π€¦ββοΈ.
LikeLike
Well done Ive been completing tasks I’ve put off too this week..it feels so good to break through the inertia..You are doing really well.
LikeLiked by 1 person
It really does! Thank you so much!! π. It’s definite improvement π
LikeLike