Yay, I did get going in the end!
After all of the delays, anxiety loops,
And made-up constructs;
My plan was to do some outdoor stuff,
To get as much sunlight as possible,
I also did some fiddly stuff inside—
I was beating myself up for doing these in the wrong order—
I did the fiddly stuff during the middle of the afternoon,
And sweeping the patio and washing my car in the evening 😆;
Yes— this is how much detail my mind goes into,
So that whilst washing my car, I wasn’t very happy,
Even though that was the first time I’ve ever washed it myself!
Just because it wasn’t practical, in places I lived previously,
And when it was practical, I was very depressed and demotivated,
(I’ve now had my car for 4 years and 4 days!
And it did get washed once a year during services!);
When I finally stopped, sweaty and anxious,
To lie down and relax,
Of course, that’s when noisy guy came back,
—You hear his arrival, by the following sounds—
- Friend’s car parking outside my window
- Car doors slamming
- Whooping, shouting, laughing and screaming sounds simultaneously
- Front door slamming
- Stomping through the hallway
- All of the above sounds again, in reverse
- Once more the first way
- Then back again
Thankfully, the fucker’s gone!
And I’m moving on :),
I can concentrate again, I can relax,
And I’m happy with what I’ve done.