Vast swathes of anxious time,
Before coming back to life,
All over again,
Get the basics done,
Now I can focus,
The rest of the day is good,
But suddenly it’s morning again,
Urgghhh,
Need to do those basic things all over again,
They used to be such a hell because of OCD, anxiety and dissociation,
But lately they’ve been better,
But with the monotony and wasting half of each day,
It still gets tiring,
To do it all over againβ¦
But stop!
This is the loop which needs to be broken,
Come back to the now, again,
Looking forwards,
But that will not be enough,
If I just fade again;
Come back to the now,
Get a bit of momentum,
That shower, now,
Will be a major accomplishment! π₯³ππ
Ok, Robin,
That’s pole position, pole position! π₯
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Your last verse is very optimistic! π
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Thanks Margie! :). Sorry I took so long to reply, been a bit of a slow/weird day, lol. But it ended well again π and I feel very up for tomorrow. π
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Wonderful to have a day end well. π
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Yep! π
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I hope you’re good.
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Hanging in there, thanks Robin.
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Great π€π
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It is indeed very optimistic, as it’s envisioning myself as a formula one driver! ππ€£
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Yass! celebrating small wins.
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These ailments we have make us write beautifully
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Thanks a lot! π. It’s very true, they do! Through the sheer need to express those feelings in the moment, the writing comes very easily, and in a kind of original way.
I really value my attention being brought back to these things which I wrote several days or longer after I wrote them, because I really see them in a new light. And I’m much more impressed myself with this poem now! π
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So u r learning how to maneuver ur emotions a few days after the event. That’s fantasticπ Proud of u π
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