Unease And Terror

Anxiety, Poem 1 Minute

Deathly drums beat it out into the darkness,
The pitch-black darkness of the corners of my mind,
Wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith,
Wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith, wraith…

Cooking a curry in the dead of night,
Detecting a slight movement, in the corner of my eye,

Did the door just…open?
Yes, it did, it’s opened further,
Gaping almost imperceptibly slowly,
Don’t react, don’t react,

Damnit!
It’s here,
The Zombie In The Corner,
Stench of alcohol wafts in and over me;

I meet its gaze, a cryogenic chill,
It’s cold, empty and devoid of life,

I feel like watching the movie Rec again,
By means of exposure therapy to this horror,
Perhaps I could learn non-reactivity to it,

But I think it runs deeper, deeper than this,
Instinctive and visceral,
Fight-or-flight TERROR.

Image par Stefan Keller de Pixabay 

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Published by 𝑹𝒐𝑩𝑰𝑡 πŸͺ

I write poems which are mental health-themed, creative or humourous :). Within mental health I write a lot about: ADHD, OCD, anxiety, autism, emotional traumaβ€” usually with an optimistic slant. My goals for my blog are to give myself a therapeutic, creative outlet whilst also being able to connect with and relate to other people.

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15 thoughts on “Unease And Terror”

    1. Haha, I guess you’re right! I wasn’t actually intending that meaning, too, I was just trying to describe my emotions and ensuing thoughts from the literal situation with my housemate.

      But I often do that. I feel like I’m doing it the wrong way round lolβ€” through describing physical things, coming up with metaphors for more ephemeral things.

      Thanks! πŸ–€

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    1. 😁. This is what I live with! It’s definitely unsettling in the middle of the night, haha. Though it provides lots of inspiration for horror writing.

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    1. 1000%! Lol. It really helps doing it in the middle of the night, but even then, lately that housemate is just walking through to go and smoke at all times of the day and night, without getting any sleep. It’s really horrific.

      I’ve been in touch with one of her friends, who once came round and exchanged phone numbers. Her friend is also at a loss for how she can help, because she refuses help and isn’t honest about things πŸ€·β€β™‚οΈ. Yesterday I watched her spend over 30 seconds just stubbing a cigarette out on a wall, the physical coordination was evidently that difficult… :\.

      Anyway, I’ve finally emailed a scan of the letter that the mental health hospital had sent to me, to the council, and also mentioned that housemate’s issues to them again. I will ask the council what the timescale is for getting out of here in my next email!

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    1. Thanks! Besides going the ‘medical route’ to getting independent housing, they usually have a restriction that you have to be 35 years or older to be eligible for it. Which I find quite strange, so it’s good I have the backing for the medical requirement.

      Having the extra requirement for it to be on the ground floor, though, always makes me plan for the worst case in waiting times! I just remind myself how long I was fearing it would take the last time, and how surprisingly quick it was (I was lucky, for sure! As well as my situation being absolutely dire!).

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    1. Thank you! I really appreciate your comments πŸ™‚.

      I like the emojis you’ve added to your name and blog title, πŸ˜„.

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