It’s really quite criminal,
The depths to which I sunk, at times,
Last year,
Living in the car;
Just to give an exampleβ
One day, going to the swimming pool last June,
I spent about 3 hours in the changing rooms,
(This happened more than once),
βStuck, in OCD rituals,
Amidst the simple process of getting changed;
That alone is heartbreaking,
And by the end of it,
It was all I could do to shower,
And get out of there;
I spent a lot of time just hanging around in car parks,
Sitting in my car,
Waiting for rush hour, in Edinburgh,
So that I could get moving again;
I would listen to podcasts,
If I was in the mood for it,
But this one day,
Was totally dejected;
I’d run out of motivation again,
Had hit a wall,
And in my total isolation,
Had nobody to turn to;
Now here’s an insight into why people do ‘crazy’ thingsβ
I was suffering unbearable pain,
And desperation,
The only thing on my mind was suicidal ideation,
Sitting there, stuck,
With nothing in my power,
Except the one action I could do,
βTo hold the horn and scream;
With nothing to lose,
I may as well make my pain known,
And, besides,
I couldn’t hold it in,
Plus, I knew,
Nobody would take any notice,
Not really,
Or they rarely did;
But after some minutes,
A kind lady came to me,
She asked me what was wrong,
And I started to explain my story;
She was a school teacher, from Nottinghamshire,
(Where I grew up),
Also with a son called Robin,
βWhat a coincidence!
She had to take the kids home,
But she’d be back,
If I could hold on,
For just 40 minutes?
What incredible generosity,
And I know how busy school teachers are,
βThat after a 12 hour, non-stop day,
She’d offer to do that;
That lady kept me alive that day,
And thanks to her act,
I’m here, writing today.
Incredible, huh?
πͺ
The compassion of others is a constant source of amazement – and comfort – to me π€
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πππ. The amazing few π.
I’m going to write more of these stories. I’m going to free myself of obligations so that I feel free to write about them, because they require concentration. And it really felt good to describe it π.
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Sounds like a brilliant idea to me. For lots of different reasons π€
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Thank you!
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Thank you for reading it!
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Such an inspiration! Both her and you! Thank you… π
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Thank you!! I only just found your comment, I think I accidentally pressed a keyboard shortcut which disapproved it!
Thanks for the comment π.
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You bet! Take care of yourself!
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Thank you! Same to you! π
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The kindness of strangers is an amazing and beautiful thing.
And , you must never think of leaving this world, again, please !!!
β‘
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Yes it is. I’ve since had an opportunity to return it to someone in a similar situation. Thanks Margie! That comment was touching. Honestly as long as I have at the very least writing, and especially with the community of people on here, I never will π.
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It’s amazing how much much someone’s kindness can effect someone else!
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Yep, it’s so important to spread it all the time π.
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And not be apathetic.
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Compassion and kindness in a time of need β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
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Yep indeed! Thank you π
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Anytime boo π
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Boo? π€£. Fright on-demand!!
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Haha!!!!!
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LOL π.
How’s things over there, how’s life in the hospital now? You must have great insights into the US situation.
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Mehhhh… Not horrid… Not good though. We’re running out of supplies at my hospital.
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Ouch. I guess any given hospital won’t have too many cases yet, but yeah, changing quickly. Worrying about the supplies. This is going to become mentally tough for hospital workers, and just in general.
Any time you want to contact me btw, just let me know. Also up for whatsapp calls, if it helps keep us sane!
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Yeah. I could work 24/7 if I wanted to with the amount of stuff that needs to get done at work…
What’s WhatsApp?
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A very kind lady indeed…
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Yes, for sure! π
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Poor Robin. You have been through hell. I am so glad that a kind person helped you that day.
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Thanks Ember! I haven’t even begun on those stories yet…π. So many!
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I hope you keep writing about all this until you feel okay. π
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Thanks Ember! Although, it seems to have taken a backstage in priority now! π
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Yes, I get that! π
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