Setbacks And Isolation

Poem, Trauma 1 Minute

I haven’t hurt this much in a while.

Isolation,
Makes setbacks so tough,
I lost so much time, last year,
Not being able to express myself,

And I’m struggling, now,
To find an opportunity to do so,
Because my day has started,
Very stressfully and angrily;

It’s taken a few days,
To get money sorted out,
Dependent, as I am,
On money from my parents,

And last year, in the car,
When I had crucial things to be doing,
I lost hours, and days,
Trying to get them to respond,

β€”Furthermore,
They’d send angry messages,
Saying I’m not doing anything,
Whilst I was trying just not to kill myself πŸ˜‘;

The irony of it,
Was beyond unbelievable,
It brought me to meltdowns,
Crying and screaming,

And it was always those setbacks,
The hardest to get over,
β€”Out of my hands,
Just waiting on their whim;

My survival depends on them,
Yet I don’t trust them one bit,
And it derailed my day, today,
I’m just trying to get over it.

But the good thing was,
They’ve set up a regular payment,
β€”For once, this month,
I can plan and budget.

I love myself,
And I’ll get over this,
I fucking feel better,
Having written this,

I am ME,
Proactive and energetic,
Kind and sensitive,
Funny and free πŸ˜‰.

πŸŒͺ

Published by 𝑹𝒐𝑩𝑰𝑡 πŸͺ

I write poems which are mental health-themed, creative or humourous :). Within mental health I write a lot about: ADHD, OCD, anxiety, autism, emotional traumaβ€” usually with an optimistic slant. My goals for my blog are to give myself a therapeutic, creative outlet whilst also being able to connect with and relate to other people.

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12 thoughts on “Setbacks And Isolation”

    1. Thank you so much Megs!! πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ’™. Great encouragement! 😁.
      πŸ’™

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