I dreamt about two weird things last night,
βWriting an angry poem,
βThe previous family pet dog had come back to life;
Let’s address the dead poem first,
Then come back to the…
Or was it…
I’d been worrying last night,
About the idea of writing poems too gratuitously,
βIf I’m going to publish them online,
What’s the point, unless they’re entertaining?
Or somehow helpful?
So I had a dream,
About writing a really gratuitous poem,
Full of anger,
Spite and revenge,
It made me feel sick…
And even in the dream,
I swiftly deleted it;
Then I dreamt about the family dog,
(Duke),
Who in fact still had some life in him,
In fact, it was possible,
To bring him back to life,
βTo live that last part of it;
Nature hadn’t been cheated,
Apparently,
Because this was his intended life-span,
It was just as though his life had been on pause,
(Yes,
Dreams have to be scientifically realistic, too);
I was at home, alone with him,
Cuddling and playing with him,
And no,
This couldn’t get any more heartbreaking,
So I’d better stop π.
Whatever you do,
Don’t read this whilst listening to piano music π
.

πͺ
So much grief and sadness, Robin. Do you think it’s possible Duke (another gorgeous dog) came to you in a dream to comfort you? You poor soul. You seem to be going through tough times today. π
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Possibly! The poem sounded sadder than it was reallyβ he died about 10 years ago. It was really in the dream itself that it was a bit sad and surreal. Then when you combine it with the photo, it looks super sad π.
It didn’t really affect my day actually, it was partly because I’ve been so lethargic that I had more time to think of things to write.
Thank you! π€
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Hey Robin, I wonder if it would be really helpful for you to write that poem you dreamed about. Just for yourself. Write it on paper, read it as many times as you need to, and then tear it to pieces and throw it away. It’s a tried and tested therapy technique and enormously helpful. Also, I am wondering if you ever draw. Draw anything you like, add words if you want to. I have done both of these, just for me, and thrown away loads of stuff. It’s all helped me to get through stuff that’s happened and find a place of calm and happiness. I hope that it might help you too. π
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Thank you so much for the ideas, Ember! (Is Ember your actual name?).
Well, the poem was basically the kind of thoughts I have sometimes (about the topic the poem was about). So yes, what you said might help. It’s tied up with ongoing anxieties about having to depend on family for money, and feeling totally insecure about that. My existence totally depends on that money, so my entire existence feels like it’s on borrowed time. I’m literally living for each day.
Funny you mentioned drawingβ I was just doing a load of doodling last week in a talk about diet, at Green Health. It was really slow so I was doodling whilst listening. Also last year a couple of times I messed around with doing random sketches. I DO really enjoy drawing, and the creative freedom and expression of it. It’s something I have plans to try to improve through groups or something. You’ve just reminded me of something I once had in my todo list, so I’m adding it again now! Thank you!
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Hey Robin, no, my real name is not Ember, but a while ago I thought very seriously about changing my name, and Ember is the name I would have chosen, so I enjoy using it online. And I chose bear because I think they are amazing animals. I absolutely love them. Also dogs, cats, wolves and otters. My gravatar is our lovely cat, Jessica.
I’m glad that your family supports you. I think you are going through so much that you need that support, and I hope you continue to receive it. But I can see how much it worries you that it might stop. All parents are different, of course. All I can say is that, as a parent, I would always expect to support our daughter at any point in her life when she needs it. Life is tough, difficult and expensive, and I think it is becoming increasingly hard for younger generations. There are just so many different pressures and so much competition. The days when someone might expect to have a job for life are over. So I hope that your family continues to support you for as long as you need it, assuming that they can afford it.
I’m really glad that the drawing idea fits in with your plans. A3 paper is ideal for really letting your thoughts and feelings flow, but whatever format you choose, I hope you find the sense of pressure lifting. When I did it, I was stunned by what came out. I let go of a huge amount of sadness and anger. I hope it works for you.
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It helps!
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Hi. The poem helped, or piano music? π
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As a Dog lovers I relate to this sadnesses. I wrote on just like this https://lovekadisky.wordpress.com/2020/04/28/wet-nose/
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Hey, thanks a lot! π That’s a very nice poem!
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Thank you Robin.
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Damn!! This broke my heart π
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Awww! Sorry! Actually, it did come across as more sad than it was supposed to be! The line at the end saying that I’d have to stop because it’s too heartbreaking, was more that it Sounded too heartbreaking, without meaning to be so much π.
Although I guess the dream was pretty sad!
Thanks for reading it! π
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You penned it so magically dear. The heartache was definitely very evident. But so was your love. π€π€ππππ
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