I was focussed,
I was happy,
I was doing things,
Then the sounds wore me down again,
And led directly to writing and reading OCD,
I’m extremely resentful about that,
It’s messed up my mental state,
Now I have to tear myself away from OCD,
And it’s only going to get worse,
When the weather gets warmer,
And I have to keep the window open,
I can’t read,
I can’t meditate,
I can’t relax,
I can’t write poems properly,
I was even going to start a podcast,
But ohh noo!!
I can’t do that!
Not with constantly-creaking floorboards!!
I want to smash this mug against the wall,
Slow-motion car crash,
And I can’t do anything,
Just like before,