It’s been a bad day,
For irrational anxiety,
As well as self-punishment,
Through muscular tension;
(I mean the nonsensical,
Tourettes/OCD thing);
And even as I was thinking over it,
Whilst walking through the supermarket,
I thought,
I’ve got to write a poem, when I get home,
βTo digest all of it;
It really is true,
That pain and frustration,
Lead to rhythm and rhyme,
Without hesitation,
I wonder why that is?
Is it generally true?
For I remember, the one time,
I chose to read some poems,
βGot some books from the library,
One of which, by Keats,
βOne of those ‘classics’,
But I couldn’t stomach it,
For besides being cryptic,
They were depressing as hell,
Nowhere a hint of light,
As far as I could tell!
Well that’s a sample size of one,
And, to be fair,
It could just be writing’s ability,
To turn your mood around.
πͺ
β€οΈβ€οΈ Yesterday was my irrational anxiety day… Possibly today still too… Unsure yet.
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Thanks a lot π. It really has been a weird day full of head games!! π. Are you working at the moment?
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You’re welcome! I was yeah… My hours are all over the place…
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I actually meant ‘now’ in the wider sense, hahaβ in this current ‘epoch’. I remember you said you were a nurse, just weren’t sure if you had had to take a break from it, or something.
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No. I work full time. Always staying busy here π
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Cool π.
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I can’t remember why I asked :\.
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Robin, I know how writing poems is helpful to you but I was just curious about if you keep a journal.
I find that writing in my journal daily is quite helpful to me as I can bare my soul there and it’s good to look back on my daily life as it progresses through loss and inspiration.
I like to use paper and pencil and find it very good for me!
Keep writing on here though as it seems good for your soul.
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You know… when I’m in a really bad shape, I write poems too…
I think I find some sort of structure in… “inside the tornado of chaos” ha!
Maybe that’s why “That pain and frustration, Lead to rhythm and rhyme”
And “is it generally true”: I found these two stories: https://oc87recoverydiaries.org/ocd-story/ and https://www.poetryfoundation.org/harriet/2018/01/portrait-of-the-poet-with-ocd-and-pogo-stick
Your poems are getting better and better ππ»ππ»ππ»
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Wow! I really related to these two parts:
“My OCD forces me to imagine every detail of a traumatic scenario, whether it be one I have witnessed or heard about”
“I hadnβt thought about pogo sticks in years, but the act of letter writing loosened up my brain; made it more open to writing down this silly question. And thatβs when I know Iβve done it. Iβve tricked my brain into opening up the fun writing part of itself, the unanxious, associative leap-y part”
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That’s really interesting and cool that you write poems when feeling bad too! Hahaha! Nice use of my phrase π. Although it’s not really mine, originally, but a friend’s.
Thank you so much for the compliment! π€π
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