Work Capability Assessment

Tomorrow,
Somebody else gets to decide,
Whether I’m ‘fit for work’,
Or not;

Which is a bit of a strange one,
Since myself and the doctors are best-placed,
To make that decision;

My Jobcentre work coach asked me:
“What’s your plan in case they decide,
That you are fit for work?”,

I replied,
“Well, whether they think I am or not,
Does not affect whether I am or not”,

She replied,
“You’ll stop getting Universal Credit,
If they decide you’re fit for work,
But you don’t look for work”,

“I guess I’d have to be homeless again, then”,
I replied,

β€”This is how the system works…

I expect this assessment to be stressful,
And it’s known to be traumatising,
In fact,
Self-prophesising,
Mental illness-perpetuating,

And this is a far cry,
From what people who haven’t had to rely,
On the welfare system,
Have in mind…

I am only alive now,
Because my parents have sent me money,
Each month for a whole year,

β€”Thousands of pounds…
It’s been ridiculous,

But at the same time,
This occurred only because they didn’t understand,
Couldn’t emphathise,
With my situation,

And haven’t recognised their autism,
I wonder if they ever will,
I doubt it,
Because they fear self-criticism,
β€”Which is part of the problem,

A huge part,

They also have very rigid thinking patterns,
This is also extremely typical in autism,
β€”I know you’re reading this,
So do take heed
;

So,
Whilst I don’t fear being traumatised,
From this assessment,
For I’ve been through much worse,
And have a level of self-confidence,

I do fear falling between the gaps, now,
Just when I’ve been improving,
β€”For this period, of living,
Without worry about work,
With a stable home,
And stable income,
Has helped me massively,
And would continue to do so;

My ambitions grow,
As OCD lessens,
I start to regain,
Enjoyment of hobbies,
β€”Which is such an achievement, for me,
Like you couldn’t possibly believe;

And ‘falling between the gaps’,
Is what I do best,
β€”I don’t do arthritis properly,
And I’m too young, apparently,
But I walk ‘too well’,
Because I avoid injury;

And so it goes,
But what the hell,
It’s out of my control,
I’ll only do my best πŸ’™.

πŸŒͺ

17 thoughts on “Work Capability Assessment

    1. Thanks so much! And for reading. πŸ™‚πŸ’™.

      I’m definitely a long stronger now before going there in a few hours.

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      1. Thanks so much for encouraging a random stranger! The assessment was completely fine in the end :). Then I had a good conversation with a friend I made through wordpress. Pretty cool! Your comment helped πŸ™‚.

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      2. Haha! The best kind πŸ˜…. Did you have any particular inspiration to do that? You’re too kind, thank you!

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  1. Hi Robin, I’m back on WordPress and found this post. I see from the comment above that you say the assessment was fine. I hope everything works out in your favour and you don’t find yourself thrown into a nightmare again. It’s so important for everyone to have stability. Anyway, I didn’t get much writing done, as life has been very busy recently, so I thought I would enjoy catching up with you. At our end, we have finished watching Community, alas, and we are trying to find our next fun thing. Any suggestions? EmberπŸ˜ƒ

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    1. Hey, Ember! Good to hear from you again :D, although sorry you didn’t get much writing done! But yeah, sometimes life gets in the way :).

      That’s so nice you wanted to catch up, and thanks about the assessment! I’m actually itching to write about that now, I’ve finally got stuff out of the way :D.

      I’m still on series 1 of Communityβ€” It’s as good as I remembered, and better! Jeff truly is a great character, lol, and Piers. One of those two is my favourite character.

      Oh, just the show for you! Can you get hold of Næturvaktin?
      https://www.imdb.com/title/tt1141747/
      It’s so funny and unique.

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      1. Hi Robin, What a relief to have the assessment out of the way. Looking forward to seeing your thoughts about it. Your recommendation was spot on. We watched The Night Shift about 10 years ago when it was shown on the BBC and we loved it: so low key and different. So glad you are enjoying Community again. Yes, it’s just as good second time around. The other series we have just finished watching is The Good Place on Netflix. We have been following it since it began three years ago and we were all in tears when it ended last night. Do you know it?

        Truth to tell, if I didn’t watch television, I could have written a massive tome in the last few years, but I don’t regret my choice! It’s not as if I am Douglas Adams and I have a publisher breathing down my neck. My writing is just something I have to do when the spirit moves me. I only do it because I love reading so much and I would like to put a book out into the world for other people to enjoy. One day!

        Anyway, I hope you are having a good weekend. I did a lovely long session of yoga this morning and went for a walk with my daughter. Now I am doing WordPress and reading the Guardian and feeling sad about officially leaving the EU. What about you? EmberπŸ˜ƒ

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      2. Hi Ember,

        Thanks a lot! Actually I just wrote about it last night, already lol.

        That’s amazing! Really gratifying to see how accurate I was with guessing that you’d like it, hahaha.

        Whilst watching Community now, your phrase keeps returning to my mindβ€” “each episode is a work of art”β€” it really is!

        I haven’t heard of The Good Place actually, no! To be honest, I don’t watch much TV at all, mostly documentaries if anything. I just have one friend with a particular taste in TV, and he occasionally introduces me to stuff and it’s always good. I can recommend to watch anything with Matt Berry in itβ€” such as What We Do In The Shadowsβ€” you’d definitely love that too! Also very original.

        All experiences contribute to things like your sense of humour :). All the tv shows we’ve seen, especially the comedies, will only add to our humour :D. So I don’t think wasted at all :). Can never be sorry for being in a relaxed state! Infinitely better than stressed.

        You should keep that goal of publishing a book, that’d be awesome! :D.

        Thanks, yeah my weekend is ok actually :). I’m just very sleepy from staying up later last night than most of this weekβ€” from writing so much! And my body’s adapted to getting up early now.

        That’s a great start to your weekend! I’m going to start doing some yoga in my day, my knees are currently suffering.

        I wasn’t aware until just then that you live in the UK, haha! I have no emotion left for Brexit, and haven’t had for a long time! Though I started off caring.

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  2. So I just read loads of your stuff. Wow, you have so much stuff going on. I loved the picture of you in the mountains. I have a few like that myself in my younger days. Where were you in that picture? It could be Scotland but the array of mountains looked different. I’m just curious! I was in the Cairngorms again a few months ago and that was just fantastic. I climbed a foot hill with my daughter.

    I hope yoga helps with your knees. It certainly does with mine. I come and go with yoga. Sometimes I love it. Sometimes I feel bored by it. But it certainly helps to keep my spine strong and flexible, which I value.

    Thank you for remembering my comment about Community. I think it is the most intelligent comedy, but The Good Place comes close. If you ever get round to it, I think you’d love it. It’s great that you don’t watch much TV, though. I didn’t either for many years, but a few years ago, we just decided to embrace middle aged bliss and got Netflix and Amazon Prime. The rest is history. I haven’t given up on writing, though. I just have to be in the zone. In the meantime, as you say, being relaxed is key, and I love watching brilliant comedy.

    Matt Berry. We enjoyed the IT Crowd and Toast of London. We will have to try What we do in the Shadows.

    And as for politics, I am going to do my best to ignore everything for the next five years. What a shower of idiots.

    Congratulations on your bins letter. In a communal space, these shared responsibilities are so important. I hope the others come to understand this too. πŸ˜ƒ

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  3. Thanks so much for reading all that Ember! Your comment was re-assuring πŸ™‚.

    I was actually standing on top of Half Dome in Yosemite National Park, in California, in September 2009! Me and my friend had the granite top of the mountain all to ourselves, on a beautiful warm, calm and clear evening. To get to the very top we had to climb a 100ft rope ladder at an ~60 degree angle. It was an amazing adventure! 😁.

    The Highlands in Scotland ARE incredible! I did a road trip around Scotland in 2017 with some friends, and will do it again as soon as I can πŸ™‚.

    Yes, I’m the same with Yogaβ€” I can’t do too much of it or gets boring and I get anxious!

    “I haven’t given up on writing, though. I just have to be in the zone. In the meantime, as you say, being relaxed is key,”

    β€”I 100% relate to this. The only time this hasn’t been true, is when I’m writing poems! My brain loves the short, self-contained-ness of them. And a lot of them are written whilst having stressful emotionsβ€” which only results in good poems! Poems have completely freed up my writing πŸ™‚.

    That’s great you like Matt Berry! Me and some friends are big fans of him! Lol.

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  4. Hi Robin, I love reading all your poems. They really are very good, as well as being a valuable pressure valve for you. I used to write much better poetry when I was going through a lot of stuff. I think angst is like the grit in the oyster that creates the pearl. I value the stability of my life and I don’t want to lose it, but I am aware that a certain kind of inspiration has gone. It’s still there in some ways, but it is far less intense. But I think the trade off for feeling relaxed most of the time was worth it. I have spent so much of my life feeling anxious that I really don’t want to go there again.

    Your Yosemite experience sounds amazing. You must have been so incredibly fit to do that kind of climb. I am saddened by how much arthritis has taken away from you. But I do hope you get to do another road trip around the Scottish highlands. We went up in October by the overnight train. It should have got to Inverness at 9am, but we were running three hours late, which was great, as it meant we had three hours of travelling in the morning light between Dunkeld and Inverness, via Aviemore, mountain watching. My heart was singing all the way. Then we had a week by the sea and in the mountains before returning to Norfolk. I went to university in Scotland and I miss it a lot.

    It’s good to know someone else who can take or leave yoga. I have a couple of friends who do it every day and think everyone should be the same. Not so!

    Going back to your Yosemite experience, do you like watching films about climbing? We do, and in addition to films like Touching the Void, about the climbing experience itself, we also really like Cliffhanger ((1994) which combines climbing with a thriller. It’s like Diehard in the mountains.

    What are you up to today? I was going to do some grocery shopping this morning but the car battery was dead. We have ordered a trickle charger which should arrive tomorrow, so that’s all fine. I cleaned the lounge instead, which I was going to do tomorrow.

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