This about struggles with having developed a blinking tic during a stressful and traumatic period of time, and the dissociative symptoms that it causes.
What am I doing here,
Where am I going,
What did I do yesterday?
I should have done this,
I should have done that.
Blink, blink, blink.
This has been my
Existence for some time now.
What does it do to a person,
When reality is broken into
Frustrating isn’t it?
Well it reduces existential pain,
And it reduces the pain of boredom.
But in so doing it becomes the task of the day,
Even once the situation has changed,
Then the only option is to stop blinking,
Which is a major task in itself,
Harder even than quantum mechanics.
But it must be undone,
Along with all the other anxious habits of thought,
They must be all be let go,
In order to restore joy,